Its been a while since ive posted and i apologize, things are just hectic lately. School is taking off - after the first week, people's birthdays are coming up, and of course drama drama drama. Let's just say that im not exactly content lately. And its nothing personal at all, i just don't feel like being at school. i want to stay at home and curl up in a ball and let my body recover. It's not even the fact that i've been hurt or anything. Im just exhausted - in all aspects. It's funny when push comes to shove and you figure out who really is there for you. It's upsetting that someone can go MIA for weeks and all of a sudden be like "hey, so ive been feeling not so good lately and i know i havent been a good friend. i wanted to say sorry." and think that all is okay. Knowing me, it is okay, cause i'll just end up letting it go.
I let go. I have no expectations for people anymore. If you dont already know, i took myself off the market - and its actually going to stay that way. Im no longer interested in having a bf or a companion right now - of course its not to say that if 'mr. right' comes along, im not going to give it a shot. my new rule is no more 'mr. right now'. Im no longer going to let people treat me like shit and say that they are my best friends and that they care about me.
All i ask is 3 things. Respect, Consistency, and Straight forwardness.
Im going to crawl back into my little hole right now and hibernate. I'll let you know when the sun comes out again.
xox
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