its over when its over

So speaking to a friend earlier tonight...talking about, well to be frank, girl talk. Relationships are so hard sometimes. There's the two actual people involved, and everyone else that decides that its their business as well. Because of these people, mixed messages start to storm in. Whether it be about the ex, other girls/boys, what he/she said, what they are doing...and the list goes on and on. The point is that the only two people that know whats going on in the relationship are those two people..and it should stay that way. As much as your friends go up to you for advice on a relationship situation, it isn't your laundry to do. You, at no means, should be putting yourself in a situation where you are not directly involved.

Honestly, i wish that people would get that. You turn to your friends because you trust that they will keep it to themselves. Unfortunately, life isn't all gummy bears and disco balls. So gossip is going to happen no matter what, because its human behavior. It's never set in stone and emotions make things extremely difficult. Roll with the punches and if it knocks you down, you know that your friends will be there to pick you up and help you put it back together.

And if youre in a situation where you're VERY unsure - kinda like myself - go with the flow and make intentions clear. Once intentions are made clear, things will just fall into place and you'll either be left standing in the rain or in someone's arms. There are going to be awkward moments where both of you don't know whats going on...but thats life. Not everything needs to be or will be perfect. Just know that when you think you're at your lowest, things usually pick up. Like I've said many times before, keep your head up and look forward - thats where you want to be.

xox

exploding hearts

There comes a time in every young girls life where she feels something that she doesn't want to. Sometime that tells her that this isn't the right time, but it feels so - well to put it bluntly - right. Every circumstance that surrounds the situation is pointing you away from it but its like there's a light and you want to stay hovered around it? I feel like I'm attracted to something shiny and I can't turn away. Horrible...

xox

formals!!

I love formals!! It's a time where everyone dresses up and looks like royalty - then goes and gets shitfaced so you look good while doing it. The dresses, the shoes, the jewelry - its a girl's dream come true. The bad side, alcohol is involved. Usually ends up bringing out the worst in people. The issues, the problems, the conflicts - all come out during this time. The key to staying classy - know your limit, stay within it.

Formals = 2 down, 2 to go

Oh how I love dressing up and looking pretty.

xox

best friends?

Don't you love it when you're so called best friend doesn't even message you to see how you're doing? Seriously? Two seconds it all it takes - especially when I'm asking you how you're doing. It's not hard, but apparently it is for you - so grow the fuck up and get over whatever the hell you're jealous about. Peace the fuck out.

the new love of my life

With the troubles that I've been going through, I've managed to find a new love. Her name is Ingrid Michaelson and she is beyond amazing. Her music is just so calming and so right for every one of my moods right now. It's about love and most importantly, it's about LIFE. The good and bad and everything in between.

check out Ingrid Michaelson.

while you're at it, check out Mia Carruthers as well

ENJOY
xox

crumbling to pieces

It's so odd sometimes. One day, everything is great and you're on top of the world, and the next - well let's just say its not happy times. Within a span of 12 hours, my life seemed to have fallen apart. It looks like I'm not meant to go to school back home anymore, school itself is just stressful and to top it all off, of course - men. Three months left, and I can't pull it together. The one thing that I've never really been able to admit is that I'm terrified of change. I came to Toronto to get away - but that seems to be all I know how to do - run away. I don't remember the last time i broke down so many times within a week, let alone my roller coaster of emotions that are just everywhere because i can't control them. I'm at a loss for words cause there are no words to even describe how much I want to tell myself, "just run away you emotional wreck....or put on a freaking smile and make everyone think that everything is okay. Toughen up and aim for a new goal - things are going to work out". Too bad the first choice seems easier.....

xox

fall into place

Sometimes you just have to let go of all your inhibitions and let everything fall into place. Things happen for a reason and there's no need to regret anything because at one point in time, you wanted it. No stress is ever really needed. I say that because most of the time, things are not in your control - and they hardly ever will be, especially if they involved other people.

I am one of the most indecisive people I know. I usually cannot make a decision for the life of me. But the funny thing about that is that I know what i want - I just don't know how to get there. Sometimes, I don't see a point to trying because...well...it usually fails anyways. My previous blog about the pursuit of happiness - I completely believe that. The more you try, the more you change things that are not in your control. Things are always meant to be and they will work out when the time is right.

I am a strong believer in fate and destiny - karma as well, but we won't get into that. And that's my point of view.
xox

=)

the pursuit of happiness is the source of all unhappiness.

think about it.
xox

standards

We all do things that we regret - some more than others. But the idea is that everything happens for a reason, even though sometimes the reason is silly. Like if its a boy (or girl), not buying that one article of clothing that you love, or even something thats a little detrimental to your own body like pushing yourself too hard at the gym or drugs. Everything is fun at the time - and hopefully you do it to get to a certain goal. But as much as we hate to think of society is a horrible place and everyone needs to fend for themselves, that is the case. There's only ever going to be one person that puts you first - you. Yes, your parents and relatives will take care of you if needed but sometimes you have to be selfish. You have to think of number one because you are the only person that really knows what you want.

So think about it. Is it worth all that trouble when some guy (or girl) comes around and you get butterflies every time you see them? Or is it really worth straining your body to get the "perfect" body when really its other people that you're trying to impress? Not to mention that everyone has a different point of view when it comes to what they think is "hot", "gorgeous", or "pretty". The clothes we wear - guys usually don't notice - so who are we really trying to impress? It's a competition within the sex. And I hate to say it but sometimes the ones that are nice and take home to mom material get picked last just because people aren't ready to settle down - which is fine. We are the one that are going to be picky in the end - because well, we have a thing called standards.

Keep your head up high and look out for number one. Trust your gut when it tells you that something isn't right. It's usually right.

xox

if only..

Reading one of my fave blogs, sea of shoes, i came across these beautiful, glamorous, wonderfully gorgeous shoes...umm just let me say that i wish i had them. Blogger Jane Alderidge from Sea of Shoes, got them as a gift from Chanel herself. Talk about having the life you always wanted. Honestly, I'm happy with my life and where its going, but when you see people like that - having a passion for something and excelling at it - I'm jealous. It's not the glitz and glamour that come with that lifestyle, but its the ability to find that passion and dream and go for it. I feel like i need that aspiration right now because I'm lacking in that spirit. A few more months and i'll be out of UTM - doing something (i hope) i love.

crunch time - exams =(

xox

sweet sweet victory

For those that follow the olympics, let me just say - GO CANADA GO!! My baby - none other than Luongo (not Crosby!). As much as i do love Crosby, something about him just isn't my type. So there's no need to fight ladies. Chances are that Sidney can get any girl he wants - make yourself special or keep dreaming. Lu on the other hand, made some pretty amazing saves yesterday - despite the minor cracks but we'll let that go for now. Former Canuck goalie is pretty much the love of my life. Anyone that can work under that much pressure and still perform is good in my books!


14 gold metals Canada. That's more than a good time in my hometown of Vancouver. So proud, there are no other words to describe it. Hope everyone had an amazing time in Vancouver for those that were there. Since there was a condom shortage and alcohol stores closed down early, let's hope there's not another baby boom in 9 months =).

xox