It's so odd sometimes. One day, everything is great and you're on top of the world, and the next - well let's just say its not happy times. Within a span of 12 hours, my life seemed to have fallen apart. It looks like I'm not meant to go to school back home anymore, school itself is just stressful and to top it all off, of course - men. Three months left, and I can't pull it together. The one thing that I've never really been able to admit is that I'm terrified of change. I came to Toronto to get away - but that seems to be all I know how to do - run away. I don't remember the last time i broke down so many times within a week, let alone my roller coaster of emotions that are just everywhere because i can't control them. I'm at a loss for words cause there are no words to even describe how much I want to tell myself, "just run away you emotional wreck....or put on a freaking smile and make everyone think that everything is okay. Toughen up and aim for a new goal - things are going to work out". Too bad the first choice seems easier.....
xox
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