new man or no man?

This my friends is my new dilemma. I've come to a point in my life - finally - where I'm not dealing with drama due to men. Mainly because there are none right now. Who would have thought that I could be just as happy without one - if not happier. It's an odd realization because it feels like you always want someone to be happy WITH you...or is it that you just want someone to BE with you? This little crossroad has got me thinking...

Look for a new man or leave things that way they are right now and remain with no man? There are obviously perks to both. With a new man, you can enjoy each others company - that is what its all about isnt it? You can experience compassion and passion, trust, and if you're lucky - a thing called love. But what's wrong with being single?? absolutely nothing.

Being single doesn't mean you're not worth anything because no one is with you. It means that you have time to figure yourself out. What's the rush in meeting someone so early? chances are you still have time to change. Your 20's shouldn't be spent trying to find a man...rather than trying to find yourself. I'm sick and tired of meeting and getting attached to men that are long on charisma and short on character. If you take this time to mature and get to know yourself, chances are that later down the road you'll find yourself surrounded by the kind of people that reflect you. So really, there's no rush. Take your time, enjoy your youth and don't beat yourself up that you 'can't' find a man. It's a shame that they don't already see how amazing you are...

xox

gotta love photoshoots!!

Sometimes, my friends and i have a little too much time on our hands and we like to do things like take random photos!! From that day, here are some of the photos I'm absolutely in LOVE with.

letting go of the reigns

We all have friends, and lets hope they're good friends at that. Ones that know you, know what you want, what you want to be, what you strive for in life. And along with all these things they know, they also know whats best for you when it comes to a guy.

So maybe its time for a girl's man make over. Going for the same type/kind of person isn't going to get you anywhere. If it hasn't worked yet, its probably not going to work...ever. So what's so bad about reinventing the kind of men you go for...or maybe you should let your friends do the work - afterall, they do know you best... right?

The thing is, we all get scared and there's nothing wrong with that. Being able to feel this kind of emotion makes us human. But it's one of those things where if you've never tried it, you can't really knock it. Maybe what you think is right, is actually wrong...I know, the idea is a little far fetched but think about it. We can't always be right as much as we'd like to think so, right?

Sometimes its a good idea to let your friends drive for a bit..while you take a nap in the back seat. Things tend to happen when youre not expecting them to anyways, might as well test it out. Your friends aren't going to let you crash and burn in the rubble, and if they do, well then you know who your friends really are. All in all, its a win win win situation. You learn who your friends are by doing this, you might meet the man of your dreams, and well its a win when you can get a free dinner out of it. Good times.

the heart wants what the heart wants

Sometimes you can't help but wonder 'what could have been'. The clues were always there, you just ignored them because you think to yourself - they'll always be there. The problem is that mentality never got anyone anywhere. Good things come to those who wait - at least thats what they say.

Personally, I don't believe it. If you're always waiting, you never get anywhere. Call me cynical but its hard to think of it any other way. Spend your whole life waiting, and you never live. Spend your whole life waiting and all you'll end up with is this lonely feeling. Spend your whole life waiting and you'll die alone. What I'm trying to say is that sometimes you need to take risks. Seize the moment. Carpe Diem.

xox

clingy?

So I bring this up because I am apparently clingy according to some people aka a certain someone whos name shall not be mentioned. What classifies this term of clingy-ness?? From what I understand, it means not leaving someone alone. Not allowing them to have their own life. Talking to them and bugging them all the time about what they are doing, going to do, or did. With that in mind, let me tell you my situation very briefly because if its the long version, my fingers will start to hurt from typing so much...

situation:
I've known this guy for about 3 months - most of you that read this know who it is. So within these past 3 months, the last 2 months, I haven't initiated anything - conversations, hang outs, trips...nothing! Everytime we talk, he's the one thats the first to say hi, ask me how im doing, ask me what im doing, etc. - you get the idea. Two weeks ago, his friend had lunch with my friend - even though we're all friends. Apparently I was a topic of conversation. And on top of that, it was brought up that this guy told his friend that he was looking for a one night stand when he met me and now im being clingy.

Okay, so lets assess this situation here. Like I said before, I haven't initiated anything with this guy over the past 2 months...and yet I'M the clingy one??? excuse me?...am I missing something here?? He's the one thats been telling me to let him know if I go on a trip so he can 'tag along' (were his words exactly). He's the one that texts me all the time to figure out what I'm doing or what i did. Mind you, these words my have been fiddled around with before they got to me, but there has to be some truth to it. People don't just make up stuff like that - do they??

So with that being said - this is my farewell to him. If he's going to be telling lies about my 'relationship' with him, I'm done. Am I wrong to think this??