hangovers

So apparently theres a dark pigment thing in hard liquer that is a toxin. It is this that causes the hangover.

Now i know why i never get hangovers - i stay away from dark liquers. OH and apparently wine is the best alcohol for you. Hello red, white and rose!! Looks like I found my new drink of choice.

Random, but I figured it would come in handy since new years is just around the corner. Happy holidays everyone!!!

ps. Whistler here i come!!!!!!!!!!! of course back to mississauga. SOOO exciting! xox

issues?

So i definately think that there are a few people that have an issue with me. Whether it be with something i did, or something i said - or maybe both. How about we try this approach of telling me - especially since you consider me a friend. Stop telling lies to people that we "dont talk", even though we do and stop being selfish cause sometimes its not all about you. Sooooooooooo growing a back bone is working well for me this year - im kinda hoping that i wont have to use it so much next year. My fingers are crossed!

xox

the paradox of our time in history.

First i would like to say MERRY CHRISTMAS to all!!! Its been a great year and hopefully it'll get better in 2010!!
But on Christmas, I turned on the TV and saw this program. I believe it was called we day (from the creators of me to we) - and i heard this paradox. I couldn't believe how true this was and i immediately loved it. I thought that I would share with you all. Here is it:

The paradox of our time in history is that we have taller buildings, but shorter tempers; wider freeways, but narrower viewpoints; we spend more, but have less; we buy more, but enjoy it less.We have bigger houses and smaller families; more conveniences, but less time; we have more degrees, but less sense; more knowledge, but less judgment; more experts, but more problems; more medicine, but less wellness.We drink too much, smoke too much, spend too recklessly, laugh too little, drive too fast, get angry too quickly, stay up too late, get up too tired, read too seldom, watch TV too much, and pray too seldom.We have multiplied our possessions, but reduced our values. We talk too much, love too seldom, and hate too often. We've learned how to make a living, but not a life; we've added years to life, not life to years.We've been all the way to the moon and back, but have trouble crossing the street to meet the new neighbor. We've conquered outer space, but not inner space; we've done larger things, but not better things.We've cleaned up the air, but polluted the soul; we've split the atom, but not our prejudice.We write more, but learn less; we plan more, but accomplish less. We've learned to rush, but not to wait; we have higher incomes, but lower morals; we have more food, but less appeasement; we build more computers to hold more information to produce more copies than ever, but have less communication; we've become long on quantity, but short on quality.These are the times of fast foods and slow digestion; tall men, and short character; steep profits, and shallow relationships. These are the times of world peace, but domestic warfare; more leisure, but less fun; more kinds of food, but less nutrition.These are days of two incomes, but more divorce; of fancier houses, but broken homes. These are days of quick trips, disposable diapers, throw away morality, one-night stands, overweight bodies, and pills that do everything from cheer to quiet to kill. It is a time when there is much in the show window and nothing in the stockroom; a time when technology has brought this letter to you, and a time when you can choose either to make a difference, or to just hit "Skip Ahead"...

Please don't skip ahead. You can make a difference - all it takes is one person.

xox

the love of my life

This past weekend I headed down to Seattle for the day - and of course, this includes shopping. I definitely found the love of my life. If you already know, my watch got stolen from the UTM lib (note to self: NEVER take off anything that is valuable and put it on the table). So of course, my mission was to find a new watch and I think I achieved that mission, along with some other stuff as well aka clothes. Here are some pictures of my brand new love of my life:

isn't it just lovely?? =) Now, I'm sure you can understand why i love it so much!

That's right, its Michael Kors <3

Hope you liked the pictures that I've taken and emjoy this watch as much as i do!! Updates on my home sweet home trip to come - I'm sure drama will hit the fan soon. Girls night out on saturday!! sooooo excited! pictures to come - promise!

xox

vancouver

Back at home, and wow does it feel good. It's not so cold here and there's no school!! So my plan for these 2.5 weeks is to hang out with friends and try to work on graduate applications - of course I would.

This brings me to my question for the day. Does happiness and enjoyment of life be defined through sex? Lately, I've been told that I need to 'relax' aka need to get laid (LOL) cause apparently I'm too serious. Do people not understand that exams cause stress and therefore no relaxing is possible because unfortunately my life or career is defined by doing well on them. When i do go out to relax, apparently I'm STILL too serious. I personally don't get it. And the story goes...

Saturday night - just this past weekend - was my friends beach party. It was fun, but the night definately did not end the way i expected it to, that's for sure. Unfortunately, I had 2 exams the following week (monday and tuesday) and therefore was one of the only sober ones - and to be honest, it might have been one of the best decisions I've made. Drinking started at around 7:30pm and therefore it was a LONG night to say the least.



This night involved getting "laid" like in hawaii, a few drinks (or one too many for some), a few people that couldn't take their alcohol, somehow ended up at a bar/club, and a wake up call at 7am the next morning. Overall, I'd have to say it was a VERY successful party. Good people and the realization that we don't need mexico to wear swim suits and have fun! Little did i know that apparently there were a few match makers that night that thought that I needed to "let loose" so to speak. Now, if I'm happy with what's going on with my life, why should someone else feel like they need to intervene because THEY don't think I'm happy? My conclusion is that people need to mind their own business - but we all know that's never going to happen. So my decision - let them talk. I'm the only one that knows what i want - and my friends should be there if and when it falls apart.



Story time! Rehab in Mississauga is not the best place i would suggest going but its nice inside i guess. The music was average but not someone place you want to go when you feel like dancing. Let me say that sometimes you meet the most interesting people when youre out to begin with, but I don't think anything beats this experience. I'll just say, long story short, it involved some guy and his friends coming up to my friends and I telling us that they are abercrombie models and promoters. Apparently they were able to get discounts or something like that for us whenever. Needless to say, we came up with a story where my friend is from Croatia, my other friend is from Calgary, and I was from Vancouver. Toronto was our meeting spot and we visited it roughly every other weekend LMAO. We were'nt even supposed to go out that night - but overall, not a bad night for $10ish each.

Hopefully more stories to come this holiday season - which im sure there will be cause I'm headed up to Whistler for NYE and everyone knows that theres drama in Whistler! FML.

Happy Holidays everyone!!
xox

PACKING!!

My flight is at 4 today - and i just started to pack roughly an hour ago...(its 9:20 right now). My plan was to not sleep during the flight so that i wouldn't be jet lagged and wake up at 6am thinking it was 9. To help me do that, I've composed a list of things that I'll probably end up doing:

1) watch a movie
2) attempt to read/finish my book
3) play music until my iPod decides to die on me
4) watch another movie
5) hopefully by this time I'll arrive cause frankly, there's not much to do on a plane, on your own
6) converse with the cute guy next to you (that's only if he's cute)
7) people watch - but that gets creepy after a while

I can't wait to go home and drive, have a nice home cooked meal - cause we all know that I haven't had that in a while - and go out with friends.

Ps. TD needs to sort their stuff out cause my debit card hasn't been working for 3 days now..and it's not because of insufficient funds, stupid bank.

xox

home sweet home

For those that care, I'm heading home tomorrow (Vancouver) for 2.5 weeks. So excited. I don't think you understand. I finished my last exam today, I had an amazing time with a good friend tonight watching Sex and the City, and while watching it, we came to the realization how much of life relates to that show. It's actually kind of scary when we started to think about it.

That's not the point though. The point is that I'm going to be heading home in just over 12 hours!!! and my goal for this long lovely winter is to be the cutest snow bunny anyones ever seen. Actually, it's not a goal - it's a plan! This is going to happen. I can't wait to cuddle up in my own bed. going out with my friends, and just hanging out.

Whistler New Years Eve 2010 here i come! Hot Australian men with accents and the slopes, what more could i ask for?

xox

friday night beneath the stars...

Oh how i wish!! Whoever decided to invent a thing called exams needs to re-evaluate their stroke of 'genius'. kthnx.

xox

motivation!

To get through this horrid time of studying and stress, I've decided to take a look at the upcoming events that I'm quite excited about.

1) Iza's beach party - middle of winter, girls in bikinis, guys with their shirts off. Where else are you going to find that?
2) Vancouver on the 16th of Dec!! - home sweet home
3) Girl's night out - Dec 26th - yes, its boxing day, but nothing states that we can't go out and party as well
4) New years eve - with the people that matter of course. Hopefully no drama - but i doubt it

That's my update for now because unfortunately, I still have 2 exams.

xox

...at the end of the day

At the end of every day, no matter what happened, I want to make sure that I'm okay. With life - as hectic as it is right now - comes problems. No matter what those problems may be, it's nice to know that your friends have your back. The drama that we call life means nothing if you don't have friends to support you - even if they think that the decision you made is completely wrong. They are the ones that need to be there to help you pick up the pieces. Because as much as you think you're strong enough to get through it on your own, it's always good to have people you know you can count on - if all else fails.



From everything that has gone on this year for me - the fights, the misunderstandings, the gossip, the stress - I know that my friends are there for me when I need them. So i would like to take this time to thank them for everything they've ever done for me. Whether it be making sure that i have a good birthday or being that shoulder to cry on when I'm down. I truly want to thank the ones that have stood by me and struggled through this thing I call my life. It really means the world to me.



A friend once told me that life is like a train. People are going to get on and off at every station. Everyone has their own pace of life and are going to change whether you like it or not. The key is to be your own person and not let little things affect you because when things fall apart, it gives a little bit of room for better things to fall into its place. So have a few laughs with the people that care and forget the ones that don't. Keep in mind that the ones that mind, don't matter and the ones that matter, don't mind. Smile. And if all else fails, tell yourself that tomorrow's a new day - start fresh.

xox

wearing my heart on my sleeve

Over the past few days, I've been talking to a few people about what they think of me. The following are opinions of two men.

1) "I think you're cute, and a very nice girl. Your affection tends to be noticed though"

To be honest, yes, I can be a flirt. But I also don't see a huge problem with that. I've never purposely led on a guy that i didn't want anything to do with. I was given the advice of "If it were me, I'd still flirt but when i really wanted to get with someone, I'd be upfront about it and tell them in private". The funny thing is that I do. That's exactly what I do, so I don't understand why its so hard for men to pick that up. I'm a very blunt person when it comes to anything of that sort. I quite literally wear my heart on my sleeve. Everything is exposed - well...not everything - but the majority of it is. The sad part is, people see that my walls are down, and manipulate it so everything works out in their favor. It's quite frustrating.

2) "You're straight forward and you like consistency. When you know what you want, you go for it and your mind is made up"

"You like consistency" - ummmm who wouldn't? I'm not talking about materialistic things or anything of that sort. Just mere feelings. If you like me, tell me - and likewise if you don't. How hard is it to really save the 'torture' and tell someone straight up that you don't see it going any further? As for knowing what i want - refer to the above comment that was made.

So my question is, should I be wearing my heart on my sleeve? If I were to answer that knowing what I know, probably not. But being the person that I am - I'll probably continue to. Why? I feel like there's still hope out there is beyond my own control at this point. I just know what I feel right now - and it's really not the best feeling in the world. I'll be let down much worse than I have before - then maybe, just maybe, I'll start 'hating' men like most of my friends do at the moment.

xox

and they say we're complicated

Let's start this out plain and simple: men are hypocrites and complicated - at least the majority of them. I don't understand what on earth possess them to think that we are the ones that have complex minds they can't read. Women and men are really one in the same. We have the same problems, the same complaints, the same situations. Yet, we - as ladies - think that to be able to beat men at their own game, we have to date like one. I don't know, but i would assume that this has never crossed a man's mind. Why?

Well the answer is actually quite simple. Men have two heads - to be blunt - and they can only think with one at a time. Women have one - making us unable to stop our thought process. I find it ironic - just a little bit - that men have this double standard. I was conversing with a friend today and the subject came up. We discussed the situation at hand and this is what we came up with:

Men state that they don't want a slut. I mean fair enough, i wouldn't want a slut either. BUT, here's the catch, they don't want a serious relationship - just someone they can fool around with in the mean time. Yes, that's right ladies - I'm very confused myself. How can someone claim that they don't want to 'date' a slut when really, all they want in piece. Someone please tell me how that does NOT constitute as a slut?

And on top of that matter, they assume that it's okay for them to sleep around with as many people as they want - and they get praised for it, but heaven forbid a girl do it. When a girl sleeps around, she in in turn labeled a slut. Whatever the issue is, us ladies never get the upper hand.

The fact of the matter is, this little thought process is not by any means a state of overthinking. It's a state of logic. By no means am i saying that all men are like this - because I'm sure there are legitimate men out there that still live by the rules of chivalry. For those of you that don't agree with me, that's just fine. Everyone is entitled to their own opinion. I'm still a firm believer that there are people out there that will go out of their way for their friends, companions, family and so on for no apparent reason - just to be a nice person. Why? Because I'm still like that myself despite all the bad relationships.

Keep your head up ladies - I'm sure prince charming is out there somewhere.



xox

oldies that we forgot about

So during my 'studying' aka procrastinating ways, I came across a music folder titled 'Top 250 songs of the 90's'. Let me tell you how excited I was to listen to music that i haven't heard since i was elementary school. These songs included the best of Madonna, Michael Jackson, Cher, Whitney Houston, Toni Braxton, Snoop Dogg (when he was known as Snoop Doggy Dogg), P-Diddy (when he was known as Puff Daddy), Matchbox 20, Ace of Base, and even the lovely long haired threesome boy band named Hanson. Of course, we can't forget the one hit wonders which include the following: Show Me Love - Robyn, Tubthumping - Chumbawamba, Breakfast at Tiffany's - Deep Blue Something, Save Tonight - Eagle Eye Cherry, and She' So High - Tal Bachman.

Im sure you can all see why im so excited right now and how I don't have to justify why my playlist will be on repeat for the next little while of lovely 90's music that I grew up with. It's really simple things like these that make my day. Alright, back to my horrid day of studying - but at least I'll have amazing music to listen to while I'l suffering.

xox

new moon craze

Personally, i dont understand what the hype was all about. Yes, mister Taylor was nothing less of being totally sexed, but thats about it. The book was definately much better and even with that being said, the book was average. I personally think that this series is kind of - for lack of a better word - weak. The books are easy to read and MADE for a movie. No surprise that this saga was chosen.



Mind you, I will give many credits to Miss Meyer for creating such amazing characters and a storyline that mostly everyone melts for. If youre obsessed with the twlight series, I can understand why. But please do yourself a favor and read the books before watching the movie. I think you'll understand where im coming from.

Oh and for all the girls that are looking for their Edward or Jacob - come down from those clouds asap. There is no need to start comparing your boyfriend to these lovely - yet completely fictional - characters. Chances are that your boyfriend isnt going to appreciate the constant comparison to a 'perfect' image in your mind.

xox

first order of business being 21

So I've decided that the first order of business is to forget about men - or at least try to. I know ladies, easier said than done but what you don't realize is that we lose either way. Take this for example:

scenario 1 - we make them wait.

outcome - They stick around and do all this sweet, lovey dovey stuff that we obviously fall for. We give them piece, and they peace.

scenario 2 - we give into temptation (which I'm sure we've done in one point or another)

outcome - they STILL peace.

What I'm trying to get at is that either way, we don't win - as much as we would like to think otherwise. Now by no means am I saying that there are no good men out there, don't get me wrong. But here's the thing, women are attracted to the 'tough guy', 'bad boy', whatever you want to call it image. These are my thoughts on how everyone gets jaded in the end.

It always starts with girls when they are young and naive and think that the world is a magical kingdom. Too bad for the princess girl, she's attracted to the 'bad boy'. The boy - being bad and all - ends up screwing her over (because he really doesn't know otherwise). Because of this, the girl is now jaded and pretty much is out to seek revenge for everything that this one boy did to her....and the cycle begins.

My thoughts right now - being legal everywhere and all, i like to think that i may be a little wiser - are that let the boys (and by boys i really mean men) come to me. The thing to remember is that you need to put yourself first and trust your gut feeling, it's usually right.

xox