Tuesday, December 8, 2009

wearing my heart on my sleeve

Over the past few days, I've been talking to a few people about what they think of me. The following are opinions of two men.

1) "I think you're cute, and a very nice girl. Your affection tends to be noticed though"

To be honest, yes, I can be a flirt. But I also don't see a huge problem with that. I've never purposely led on a guy that i didn't want anything to do with. I was given the advice of "If it were me, I'd still flirt but when i really wanted to get with someone, I'd be upfront about it and tell them in private". The funny thing is that I do. That's exactly what I do, so I don't understand why its so hard for men to pick that up. I'm a very blunt person when it comes to anything of that sort. I quite literally wear my heart on my sleeve. Everything is exposed - well...not everything - but the majority of it is. The sad part is, people see that my walls are down, and manipulate it so everything works out in their favor. It's quite frustrating.

2) "You're straight forward and you like consistency. When you know what you want, you go for it and your mind is made up"

"You like consistency" - ummmm who wouldn't? I'm not talking about materialistic things or anything of that sort. Just mere feelings. If you like me, tell me - and likewise if you don't. How hard is it to really save the 'torture' and tell someone straight up that you don't see it going any further? As for knowing what i want - refer to the above comment that was made.

So my question is, should I be wearing my heart on my sleeve? If I were to answer that knowing what I know, probably not. But being the person that I am - I'll probably continue to. Why? I feel like there's still hope out there is beyond my own control at this point. I just know what I feel right now - and it's really not the best feeling in the world. I'll be let down much worse than I have before - then maybe, just maybe, I'll start 'hating' men like most of my friends do at the moment.

xox

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